Kenny My brother for all intent and purpose appears to now be in the final hours of his life. My heart is heavy with emotion...how do you capture a lifetime of loving a brother who was your hero when you were young,,,and your "constant" as you got older. Yes he is the same age as our mother when she transitioned to the next stage being. Yet it is too soon...way too soon...I have so many things to tell him...things I should have told him...and now will never have the chance to tell him.
In moments of quiet prayer and meditation all I can do is send him love and see him being held in the white healing light of God.
In this tumult of feelings, memories, and emotions...I remember a poem by James Dillet Freeman. Today it gives me comfort as it has so many times before. Today as I read it, Kenny you are on my mind and in my heart and I want you to know that you are part of my soul...and I am going to miss you.
I Am There
By James Dillet Freeman
Do you need Me?
I am there.
You cannot see Me, yet I am the light you see by.
You cannot hear Me, yet I speak through your voice.
You cannot feel Me, yet I am the power at work in your hands.
I am at work, though you do not understand My ways.
I am at work, though you do not recognize My works.
I am not strange visions. I am not mysteries.
Only in absolute stillness, beyond self, can you know Me as I am, and then but as a feeling and a faith.
Yet I am there. Yet I hear. Yet I answer.
When you need Me, I am there.
Even if you deny Me, I am there.
Even when you feel most alone, I am there.
Even in your fears, I am there.
Even in your pain, I am there.
I am there when you pray and when you do not pray.
I am in you, and you are in Me.
Only in your mind can you feel separate from Me, for only in your mind are the mists of “yours” and “mine.”
Yet only with your mind can you know Me and experience Me.
Empty your heart of empty fears.
When you get yourself out of the way, I am there.
You can of yourself do nothing, but I can do all.
And I am in all.
Though you may not see the good, good is there, for I am there.
I am there because I have to be, because I am.
Only in Me does the world have meaning; only out of Me does the world take form; only because of Me does the world go forward.
I am the law on which the movement of the stars and the growth of living cells are founded.
I am the love that is the law's fulfilling. I am assurance. I am peace. I am oneness. I am the law that you can live by. I am the love that you can cling to. I am your assurance. I am your peace. I am one with you. I am.
Though you fail to find Me, I do not fail you.
Though your faith in Me is unsure, My faith in you never wavers, because I know you, because I love you.
Beloved, I am there.
I can hear my brother's gruff voice stating, as he goes through this transition: "This is all such bullshit!"
...and I respond, as little brothers do: "It may or may not be but please just get over it because we all love you."
In moments of quiet prayer and meditation all I can do is send him love and see him being held in the white healing light of God.
In this tumult of feelings, memories, and emotions...I remember a poem by James Dillet Freeman. Today it gives me comfort as it has so many times before. Today as I read it, Kenny you are on my mind and in my heart and I want you to know that you are part of my soul...and I am going to miss you.
I Am There
By James Dillet Freeman
Do you need Me?
I am there.
You cannot see Me, yet I am the light you see by.
You cannot hear Me, yet I speak through your voice.
You cannot feel Me, yet I am the power at work in your hands.
I am at work, though you do not understand My ways.
I am at work, though you do not recognize My works.
I am not strange visions. I am not mysteries.
Only in absolute stillness, beyond self, can you know Me as I am, and then but as a feeling and a faith.
Yet I am there. Yet I hear. Yet I answer.
When you need Me, I am there.
Even if you deny Me, I am there.
Even when you feel most alone, I am there.
Even in your fears, I am there.
Even in your pain, I am there.
I am there when you pray and when you do not pray.
I am in you, and you are in Me.
Only in your mind can you feel separate from Me, for only in your mind are the mists of “yours” and “mine.”
Yet only with your mind can you know Me and experience Me.
Empty your heart of empty fears.
When you get yourself out of the way, I am there.
You can of yourself do nothing, but I can do all.
And I am in all.
Though you may not see the good, good is there, for I am there.
I am there because I have to be, because I am.
Only in Me does the world have meaning; only out of Me does the world take form; only because of Me does the world go forward.
I am the law on which the movement of the stars and the growth of living cells are founded.
I am the love that is the law's fulfilling. I am assurance. I am peace. I am oneness. I am the law that you can live by. I am the love that you can cling to. I am your assurance. I am your peace. I am one with you. I am.
Though you fail to find Me, I do not fail you.
Though your faith in Me is unsure, My faith in you never wavers, because I know you, because I love you.
Beloved, I am there.
I can hear my brother's gruff voice stating, as he goes through this transition: "This is all such bullshit!"
...and I respond, as little brothers do: "It may or may not be but please just get over it because we all love you."
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