This morning I woke up homesick. As I deconstruct the reasons for feeling this way I recognize a number of causes: 1) psoriasis is flaring up 2) gout is flaring up...the third flare-up in 10 days 3) a night of restless sleep and I am tired 4) videos on Instagram of friends/family in California together having good times.
My first thought is that I am miserable...and I definitely am not having a good time. I never fully appreciated...perhaps took for granted...all of the good times shared while living there and now that I am no longer there...the absence of these good times is painful. My type of people and my type of place. I belonged and could express my thoughts freely since we were all like-minded. I do not understand this place where I live...or perhaps I understand it way too well and do not like what it is?
My goodness but this period of transition is not fun.
All of that said, I firmly believe I am here in this place and time for a reason. As I sit here at my computer and gaze across the comfortable expanse of my my home and watch the early morning sun kiss the leaves of the trees outside my windows, as I listen to the song of the Jenny Wren warbling outside, as I listen to classical music and as I sip on my mug of coffee...I slowly come back to my senses and realize that all is ok. Divine Order is in this event as well as in this day. This moment and this day is precious.
In fact today's Daily Word from Unity also touched upon living in the moment. "I recommit today to being fully present in the moment—to the content and awareness of God’s presence." If I do this how can I not help but know that everything is going to be ok? Where all of this might lead is hidden from me right now but what I do know for sure is to live in the moment, to love, to be all that I can be today...and the future will take care of itself.
E'nuff!
My first thought is that I am miserable...and I definitely am not having a good time. I never fully appreciated...perhaps took for granted...all of the good times shared while living there and now that I am no longer there...the absence of these good times is painful. My type of people and my type of place. I belonged and could express my thoughts freely since we were all like-minded. I do not understand this place where I live...or perhaps I understand it way too well and do not like what it is?
My goodness but this period of transition is not fun.
All of that said, I firmly believe I am here in this place and time for a reason. As I sit here at my computer and gaze across the comfortable expanse of my my home and watch the early morning sun kiss the leaves of the trees outside my windows, as I listen to the song of the Jenny Wren warbling outside, as I listen to classical music and as I sip on my mug of coffee...I slowly come back to my senses and realize that all is ok. Divine Order is in this event as well as in this day. This moment and this day is precious.
In fact today's Daily Word from Unity also touched upon living in the moment. "I recommit today to being fully present in the moment—to the content and awareness of God’s presence." If I do this how can I not help but know that everything is going to be ok? Where all of this might lead is hidden from me right now but what I do know for sure is to live in the moment, to love, to be all that I can be today...and the future will take care of itself.
E'nuff!
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