"There are so many things I could say that I am speechless. I did not sleep a bit last night. I am heartbroken. Hope destroyed. Faith Shattered. Ashamed of this country…its people. And I am scared shitless! When Kamala was nominated it was like a breath of fresh air…hope was in the air that this nightmare was finally going to be behind us. With the tens of thousands of people responding to her speeches and rallies, I thought a blue tsunami was going to happen. Yet…yet…and I risk sounding like our MAGAt friends…something is not right. Regardless, I am without hope this morning and trying to find some sort of comfort for my soul. I am trying to find a way forward…find some sort of positive thing to cling to…and I cannot. This is an unmitigated disaster. Can you imagine how our Nato allies must feel? Can you imagine the poor people of the Ukraine? Can you imagine the poor people of Palestine? Can you imagine the woman of this country? Can you imagine our gay brethren? Can you imagine if your skin is a different color? As one headline this morning read: “The Nightmare Has Returned.”
This is what I wrote to a close friend this morning: “My grief is so heavy that I can barely function this morning. We are at the stage in our lives where we have more days behind us than in front of us. My dream was to live with a smart, wonderful President in charge. Now, to be honest, life is grim and it does not seem worth living anymore. I keep reminding myself one day at a time, one step at a time...but so far that is not working.
If there is anything positive yesterday it was the note from my cardiologist saying that my heart "was pumping well and is strong."
However, this morning my heart is also broken.”
~Wylddane