Each year, without fail, it happened at the end of January.
The man never marked it on a calendar. There was no reminder set, no note tucked into a drawer. Still, one morning...always in the heart of winter...he would lift his coffee mug, turn toward the kitchen window, and see it.
A begonia, opening.
Outside, the world was locked in its January posture. Snow pressed against the glass in thin, wind-scoured layers. The sky was iron-gray, the kind that seemed to hold its breath. The cold lingered so long it felt personal, as though winter were testing resolve rather than temperature.
And yet there it was.
The begonia leaned toward the light, petals unfurling in soft defiance. Not loud. Not dramatic. Just steady. Alive.
The man stepped closer, as he always did, studying it as if it might offer an explanation this time. Thick green leaves. A blush of pink edged with warmth. No crystal vase, no special soil hauled in from far away...just a pot, a window, and daily care so habitual it had become invisible.
He had planted it years ago without much thought. It was something to brighten the sill, nothing more. But over time, the ritual formed: water when the soil was dry, rotate the pot so it wouldn’t lean too far, brush away a fallen leaf without ceremony.
Care, repeated.
He realized...standing there...that this small plant had quietly kept his secrets. It had bloomed during years of laughter and during years when silence filled the rooms. It had opened its petals when he was full of hope, and again when hope felt like something remembered rather than possessed.
The begonia did not bloom because winter was kind. It bloomed because someone had paid attention.
He touched one leaf gently, mindful not to bruise it. Outside, the cold pressed on. Inside, warmth held.
And for a moment—just a moment—the world felt manageable again.
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This is the fourth morning in a row when the cold has refused to loosen its grip...cold nights, cold days, winter pressing close from all sides. I am grateful for this wee cottage in the woods, for heat humming softly, for walls that keep the worst of it out.
Still, I can feel the January blahs dancing around the edges of my thoughts.
I meet them the only way I know how: with good coffee, with gratitude for this moment.
As I sit here, memories rise unbidden...my parents’ warm kitchen, frost feathering the windows, breakfast cooking, voices overlapping in easy conversation. College mornings when cold meant nothing because youth was its own furnace. Even California days come back to me now...the so-called cold of a Pacific breeze, salt in the air, the ocean just blocks away.
These memories do not pull me backward; they steady me.
Marcus Aurelius reminds us: “You have power over your mind—not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength.” I return to that truth often, especially now. These are troubling times, and my soul feels the weight of them.
But then I look at the begonia in my kitchen window.
It blooms inches from the cold, separated only by glass. It does not argue with winter. It does not wait for permission. It simply accepts the care it is given and becomes what it was meant to be.
Perhaps that is the lesson.
We do not keep what matters alive through grand gestures, but through small, faithful ones...attention, kindness, gratitude, gentleness with ourselves and others. The warmth we tend inside becomes the bloom the world cannot freeze.
And so I begin this day...coffee warm in my hands, light growing slowly, a quiet flower reminding me that even now, even here, something beautiful is possible.
~Wylddane
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